Le Crush

You guys, click on this link for some song that was relatable at the moment. Right click on the video and click “loop.”
Okay, now that the mood’s been set…
Ah, crushes.
What. A. Wonder.
The thing is I’m currently crushing hard. Mega-hard. I don’t even know the guy and I like him.
Wowza.
Anyways, to all the people out there crushing on a lad or a gal who doesn’t know of their existence: I feel you bro. Like, nothing we can do but sit tight.
Arg, matey. Why am I like this?
The problem with crushes is that you like this person so much and you just want to keep liking them and get to know them. You want to be a little more than strangers, but you’re either morbidly afraid of going up to them and being like, “Hey, I like your face” without sounding like a total creep or they avoid you.
This friend of mine has a crush on a lad her age and he knows; the whole grade knows and keeps reminding him. She doesn’t like him anymore, she likes our other friend who is super nice and cute. The first dude avoids her like the plague though. I’d hate being in her spot.
The thing about us girls is that we sometimes fall for people who are… um… not good for us. Or we don’t have a clue who they are. It’s sad, really. We might have a lad who is probably the most amazing and the friendliest and charming and just plain awesome right in front of us yet we seem to avoid him and go for some awful dude and just harm everyone involved.
Yup. In short, life’s a complicated jumble of complications.
Now a talk about my love life (not much to it to be quite frank). Can you even consider a crush as love life because if you can’t, then I have no love life, really.
Anyways, I like this boy. I’d show you a picture, but that’s pretty risky since lots of people I know in real life check this blog.
The first thing you notice about him is his laugh. His laugh is like a baby’s; when you hear it, you just feel better and want to laugh along; it’s so unlike a laugh I’ve heard. It’s like one of those laughs girls from chick flicks seem to have that echo and are fake but his is just so real. That’s one of the reasons I like him so freaking much.
His smile is so just… different? Amazing? Charming? It’s just a little bit of everything that manages to still be perfection.
What I like about him most though is how he acts. His actions seem to be like they were planned ahead of time, so steady, so unlike me.
Now that I think about it more, I think I like him because he’s the complete opposite of me. He truly is.
He’s shockingly (like, it’s not a shock, but he’s just soooooo cute x ∞) cute. And smart. I don’t know if he’s book smart since I haven’t really known him for starters all too long, but he has this aura that exudes from him and he sure is someone who knows a lot and you can tell is spiritually strong and powerful. I don’t know, man, but there’s just something about him.
For the sake of privacy and all that lunaticity (is that even a word?) and since lots of people I know in real life read this, I’ll give him a nickname. My best friend Lavender (nickname I came up with now since I don’t feel she’d like to be part of this blog) and I used to come up with so many nicknames for people so we could talk about them behind their back and not be afraid of being caught by instructors or by the person. Don’t worry: we never talked bad about them, don’t kill me.

Fellow dweebs: I’d like to introduce you to Lavender, my best friend for what seems like eons. Lavender – people who follow my blog.

Anyway, we christened my current crush (I sound like I’ve liked a whole lot of boys hen that is totally not the case, I’ve just known Lavender since long ago) as Tuesday. Why a day of the week, I don’t know. All I know is that it stuck because I liked this other dude before him and we called him Saturday (or at least I think, he’s old news now) because his name started with an S.
So welcome Tuesday to the blog. Tuesday is a guy I’ve had a crush on since I met him which was in February I think. Around that time.
If you could meet Tuesday, I bet you’d like him too. That’s how he is.
There are lots of good and bad things that come with crushes. Some good are you seem to feel happier and have some sort of reason to live (I just cringed at the thought, it sounds so cliché) and you just have something that keeps your mind off of some things. It’s a great feeling. But then you also seem to become more self-conscious. Seem to think you have to please the person you like and make them “notice” you when that is not the case. You don’t have to change yourself just because a person won’t accept you. If they don’t accept you, screw them, amirite? There’s seven billion people out of there and they were just one of them.

Another bad thing about crushes is a crush is not something serious. It’s a thing that may last a week and change. It’s like food, you might feel a day is ramen noodle worthy and the next day feel like you want gourmet dinner cooked by a real life chef.
To add on to that, they distract you so freaking much. For example, I had this essay I had to write and it was my final. I spent two hours just reading cliché stuff online about crushes like relatable posts and memes and tips and everything. This always, always seems to happen. It’s as inevitable as oblivion.

Well, I’ll leave you guys to it since I have some stuff to do. Bye and I’ll catch you on the flip side. Peace.
Let’s pray Mama V gets better luck.

Dear seniors of 2017…

Dear seniors,

You guys graduate tomorrow. You’re done now. You’re going on to the next big adventure of your lives. You’re leaving us all.

When I first saw the ¨Get to Know a Senior¨ video, I cried. You’re leaving, finally. Leaving and we never really said thank you hard enough or as much to compensate for everything you did do. We wouldn’t be able to thank you enough for all you did, but we never did enough. All we did was complain about you or just ignore you. I feel that while we may not leave as powerful a footprint as you, we will maintain it as long as we can and make you guys proud. We promise.

You guys are going to leave such a strong legacy at the school. You are the first graduating class of our school and will probably be the best to ever graduate from here. There’s no lying there: you guys are such amazing people.

To those, I didn’t get to talk to or I was just too shy or too nervous: I’m sorry I didn’t get to talk to you and really enjoy the moments we had. Now, I realize that I should’ve done more and should’ve talked to you instead of being awkward and all that. Regardless, we can’t change that anymore, but I’m really sorry either way.

You, as an entire class, are such an inspiration. You guys are squad goals, friend goals, everything goals. You guys are the goal of all of us. You guys are the example and you set the bar pretty damn high, to be honest. How’d we get all the way up? The good thing is we have people like Kaylest and people like Raga who are obviously going to be big, like you guys, one day.

I’m aware that no seniors are going to see this, but I just needed to get it out. I can’t tell you in person, so might as well on my blog, amirite?

A few things before you go: please, please continue on being yourself. Please be the amazing people you are and work hard and in a smart manner in college or in the army or wherever the path I’ll take you. Make sure to always enjoy the time because while you guys were here, we didn’t really actually savor the moments we had and we didn’t think about how meaningful and important they’d be until they’re gone.

I was thinking about writing something longer, but I don’t know what else to say other than thank you so much and sorry. Oh, and of course good luck.

Sincerely,

Me

 

The Continuation of “Really Long Summary of Flipped A.K.A. One of the Best Books in the Entire History of Publishing”

Ha ha! Finally something I actually go back to and hopefully (no promises though) finish!

If you know me personally or just know my antic style, you should also be fully aware of my whole not medically diagnosed condition of procrastination.

I have a big issue finishing things. Especially when I have other things to finish. And the school year is coming to a close, so I’ve got that to worry about, too.

Some of you might be like, “Hey, V. What the f are you worried about? You’re just a simple teen who’s not even a teen and who just spends all her time rotting away on the internet and who has no social life away from emails to friends.”

Well, you’re right, but for someone who’s doing some things over the summer when they literally would do nothing over the whole entire year, it is a pretty drastic change.

I’ve also got friends this year, so I got that going for me, which is nice.

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Anyway, let’s continue with the actual purpose of this blog post.

If you want the previous post about Flipped A.K.A. One of the Best Books in the Entire History of Publishing, click on the words ¨slime man

So leaving off from where we ended, the tension between Mr. Goldilocks and Queen Juli is ever present. She avoids him, she hates him, whereas he seems to want to patch things up because, if you don’t already know, he has a crush on her.

A few days after that whole sit-down dinner, this really, really great event happens.

The 1963 Basketboy Auction is this thing where several boys with lunches in a basket are auctioned off individually. The person that places the highest bid gets to eat lunch with the boy they placed the bid on. You both get to eat whatever is in the basket and just talk.

Juli had some money from selling her hens’ eggs, but she doesn’t want to bid. To avoid temptation, she leaves the money she has at home. She thinks that if she has some money, she’d place a bid on Bryce and eventually lose out because of Sherri, Bryce’s ex-girlfriend (who has a major crush on Bryce).

Her plan fails when one of the people she sells her eggs to gives her some money because she hasn’t paid her. Juli tries to tell her that she doesn’t want it, but to no avail. In the end, she’s got money.

Garrett tells Bryce he saw Juli with a huge wad of money and that he’d be willing to bet that she’s betting on him. Bryce gets excited, he wants to talk to her and everything, but Juli bets on the boy before him. She bets 8 dollars on this nerdy boy who brought onion dip and is into airplanes and fishing.

He’s heartbroken. In the end, Sherri bets on him and wins. She pays a hefty amount, too. I’m guessing 50 bucks.

So now they’re eating lunch. Sherri really likes him and tries to engage with him and talk. Problem is that Juli, his Juli, is sitting next to him and Sherri. He can’t stop looking at her and thinking about how she looks exactly like the one on the newspaper.

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For those of you that can’t read Spanish, it says, ¨How can she just sit there, laugh and look so beautiful?¨ I live for these moments people, you don’t understand.

Bryce gets up. Moves to her direction. Says, ¨I need to talk to you, Juli.¨ Pulls her off her chair.

And attempts to kiss her.

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Look at her face! She’s absolutely revolted at the idea of kissing him even though she’s wanted it for so long!

But he got curbed. Really. Juli dodges his attempt and runs away crying. She bikes home.

Bryce tries to catch up with her, but meets Garrett. Garrett says that he’s flipped, he had a date with the hottest girl in the school and he blew it for someone like Juli.

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Garrett has always been a Jryce hater. Maybe he’s jealous. Who wouldn’t be? PS. It doesn’t happen like that, I just couldn’t find a good gif about it.

Bryce gets a little hotheaded (I mean, Garrett was a pretty crappy guy, so you can’t blame him) and punches him.

Bryce walks back home with a basket full of dirty dishes and a broken heart. At this point, he doesn’t care what others think about him and Juli, he likes her and that’s that. Nothing’s going to stop him from liking her.

Once home, he calls the Bakers. They don’t answer, so he goes over to the Bakers and knocks. Ms. Baker wants Juli to get it, but she doesn’t want to see Bryce after the whole near-kiss situation.

A few days pass when Juli sees Bryce digging up something in the front yard.

She is maaaaaad. All her hard work and he’s there cutting up her grass. Grass she grew.

Juli tells her dad and he’s like, ¨I said it was okay.¨

Bryce then appears carrying a sycamore tree.

Juli comes out and asks him if he needs any help.

And this happens.

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Boys, take note. This is how you get a girl to like you.

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And it ends like that. Juli gets the kiss she’s been waiting for and Bryce gets Juli to like him back.

Go read the book. It’s great, and if you don’t think so, you can fight me. I dare you.

Really Long Summary of Flipped A.K.A. One of the Best Books in the Entire History of Publishing

If you know me, you must know my favorite book of all time, Flipped. Some may not know the title, but it’s that book with the upside down yellow chick on it. It’s the best book ever, no joke. This’ll be a series of posts. I might as well just make my blog about books and movies since that’s what the good content is.

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Yeah, the title and the image are very symbolic which is why Yours Truly loves this book.

Flipped is a she said/he said book. The format is really clever. One part is from the boy’s POV (point of view for those of you who don’t know the term) and the other is from the girl’s. It’s a really creative way to write and also lets you pick sides on who you relate more to and who’s just right (you’ll see what I mean).

To make a long story short, it’s about this boy that moves into this neighborhood. He ends up moving across from the Bakers. They have this one daughter who likes Bryce Loski (that’s the guy that moved into the neighborhood) from the start. Unfortunately, he detests her. When they first meet, she wants to help unpack the myriad of packages they brought from their home. Bryce and his dad don’t want her to help, so his dad says to go help his mom with the dishes or something. He runs off. Guess who’s behind him? You guessed right, Julianna Baker (that’s that girl). She tries to grab him or something and he tries to dodge her attempts, but they end up holding hands.

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Oh my gosh. They’re holding hands, I can now die in peace.

Yeah, it’s a chick flick. So what? Fight me.

Anyway, she still is pretty annoying to him in the months to come. She tries to find him and he does everything in his power to avoid her. She does all this because she obviously has a humongous crush on the dude. She also just wants a friend and he seems like a pretty cool dude, so why not?

The point here is Juli’s crushing big time.

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I mean, how could she not? Just look at him.

They go to the same school and everything. Near the bus stop they get on to go to school, there’s this huge, majestic sycamore tree. She loves it. As a child, Juli and her brothers would climb it and it just had so many memories.

They cut it down.

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Look at Juli too. They were meant to be. They’d look so cute together.

Juli climbs up before they cut it down and tries to make the people that are in charge of cutting it down not cut it down (I’m rambling, aren’t I?). She tells all the kids to come up there. Juli begs Bryce to go up there especially. If you were ever a kid, you might recall the little song they used (or still do) to sing. I don’t know, it goes like, ¨Juli and Bryce sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G.¨ Bryce’s initial reaction was to go up there, but at the same time, he didn’t want to be ¨late for school¨ (I mean, come on. That’s the lamest excuse I’ve heard. I don’t think he would have cared if he missed a day of school.), but the real reason he doesn’t want to go up there is because he doesn’t want all the kids at school to think him and Juli were a thing.

I know, it sucks.

She’s the only one to go up there and in the end, a huge crowd gathers and she appears in the newspaper. It’s a huge deal. She stays up there till late after school. Juli stayed the whole day up there in the tree in hopes the owner of the property wouldn’t cut it down. Her dad comes and eventually she goes down. Juli is crying, devastated.

Her dad, being a freelance artist and superb full-time dad, paints her the sycamore tree. He tells her that the whole is worth more than the parts. A cow is just a cow and a tree is just a tree, but a cow, a tree, the wind blowing through the dewy grass is more than just a cow, just the wind, just the grass.

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Seriously, Parent goals, amirite? Well, my parents are pretty cool as is, so probs not.

Okay, that part came a little bit earlier, but still, I was wondering where to put it and I couldn’t find a proper place. It’s there right now and it’ll stay right there. You don’t like it? Fight me.

I’m just joking. Don’t actually fight me, I’d fall after the first punch. Sorry for whatever.

In the months to come, she goes the longer way. She can’t bear looking at the trunk of the sycamore tree. She goes the longer way on a bike. It rained a lot during that season. She didn’t care, she got wet.

I forgot to mention that Bryce’s grandpa is living with them. His grandma, unfortunately, passed away. His grandpa sees Juli in the newspaper and is weirdly reminded of his late wife.

He talks to Bryce about her and he is interested in getting to know her better since he reminds her so freaking much about his wife.

Bryce is a bit weirded out. He looks at what his grandpa was saying though and starts feeling a bit of a crush for Juli.

Juli has been giving chicken eggs to the Loskis (Bryce’s family). She is selling them to her neighbors, but they’re the only exception.

*cue ¨The Only Exception¨ by Paramore*

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I seriously love this song. Go binge-listen to all their songs pls.

They are eating the eggs and then someone mentions something about babies in the eggs. The dad then tells Bryce to figure out if they had a rooster.

Bryce is deathly afraid of Juli, we mustn’t forget that important detail.

Bryce talks to his friend, Garrett, about it. In the end, they go look over her fence to see if there were any roosters. They find out the Baker’s backyard is a complete ¨disaster.¨ There’s no grass or anything.

Bryce tells his parents. His sister says something about salmonella. His dad tells Bryce to tell Juli Baker they don’t want her eggs anymore.

Like I said earlier, he is deathly afraid of Juli.

So he ends up throwing the eggs away.

And it continues for so long. One day, Juli delivers her eggs promptly. She stays there for a bit on the porch, just wondering about Mr. Goldilocks and his luscious hair; his blue eyes; you know, daydreaming.

Out of nowhere, Bryce comes out from around the corner with the trash. He has to throw it away. Juli sees a corner of her egg carton. She’s no fool and she realizes the horrible truth. Bryce says that he was throwing them away because ¨just look at your yard!¨

She gets mad and eventually stops talking to him.

She starts losing interest, but she still likes him a bit.

Chet (Bryce’s grandpa) goes over one day when Juli was slaving in the summer heat setting up a fence. They become friends. He tells her about who she reminds him about and gives him insider information about Bryce.

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¨Some of us get dipped in flat, some in satin, some in gloss…¨ He turned to me. ¨But every once in a while, you find someone who’s iridescent, and when you do, nothing will ever compare.¨

She tells him why her house was like that. They rent it. The landlord has to be in charge of all the greenery and the house, but he doesn’t and the Bakers can’t take care of it.

Juli says that the reason they rent it is so that her uncle Daniel can go to a private facility and be taken care of properly. Her uncle is mentally disabled because the umbilical cord was wrapped around his neck as a baby. The doctors couldn’t take it out.

It’s really expensive.

Chet one day explodes and says all that when Bryce’s dad keeps on complaining about Chet spending more time with Juli, a virtual stranger. He tells them about the eggs, about everything Bryce did.

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Bryce’s mom feels guilty. She invites them to come over for dinner one day. Juli’s mom was very, um, distrusting towards them and felt betrayed after Juli tells them what Bryce told her. She thinks that a boy his age couldn’t come up with anything like that. Chet wouldn’t do that because they personally knew him. His parents had to have something to do with it.

Before her inviting them, Juli is at the library, doing homework like any sane middleschooler would. This girl comes right next to her and says that Bryce might like her. That he was looking at her. Juli was not believing it, but hey, if it was true, then what?

They went to where Bryce and Garrett were. Bryce was talking about Juli’s uncle. Garrett says that that explains why she’s like that. Bryce, having something for Juli, said what. (I can remember this part like it was scarred into my brain through watching and reading the book so many times) Garrett said, ¨Well, the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree, right?¨ Bryce wants to punch him and all that. He just laughs though because bros before girls, amirite? Wrong. That was so wrong on another level. Anyway, Juli hears and at that point, her feelings towards Mr. Goldilocks changes.

She stops liking him. She wonders how the heck did she like a guy like him. All the things she liked about him turn into just things. His beautiful, blue eyes just turn into eyes of a person she strongly dislikes. His peach fuzz turns into just peach fuzz. His scent of watermelon no longer seems attractive.

I cried at this part. It’s really sad.

Anyway, as the date of the dinner between the Bakers and Loskis nears, Bryce’s feelings for Juli intensifies. Seriously. The day of the dinner, he has an awfully hard time trying to figure out what to wear. Just because of Juli.

The dinner was very tense. The Bakers brought some pies and Mrs. Loski and Mrs. Baker seemed to not be as tense. They sit across from each other and Juli, being an example for all girls out there, doesn’t talk or look at Bryce. When they leave, she apologizes for her behavior. He’s mad because she apologized and yeah, it’s like the whole Juli-likes-Bryce situation again. Juli hates him and Bryce loves her.

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There’s a whole bunch more. I’m going to do two parts of this though. Sorry for the cliffhanger, but hey, I will tell you tomorrow what happens, so it’s not really a cliffhanger. Your arguments are invalid.

Plus, no ones sees the posts, so is it really a cliffhanger if no one sees it?