Le Crush

You guys, click on this link for some song that was relatable at the moment. Right click on the video and click “loop.”
Okay, now that the mood’s been set…
Ah, crushes.
What. A. Wonder.
The thing is I’m currently crushing hard. Mega-hard. I don’t even know the guy and I like him.
Wowza.
Anyways, to all the people out there crushing on a lad or a gal who doesn’t know of their existence: I feel you bro. Like, nothing we can do but sit tight.
Arg, matey. Why am I like this?
The problem with crushes is that you like this person so much and you just want to keep liking them and get to know them. You want to be a little more than strangers, but you’re either morbidly afraid of going up to them and being like, “Hey, I like your face” without sounding like a total creep or they avoid you.
This friend of mine has a crush on a lad her age and he knows; the whole grade knows and keeps reminding him. She doesn’t like him anymore, she likes our other friend who is super nice and cute. The first dude avoids her like the plague though. I’d hate being in her spot.
The thing about us girls is that we sometimes fall for people who are… um… not good for us. Or we don’t have a clue who they are. It’s sad, really. We might have a lad who is probably the most amazing and the friendliest and charming and just plain awesome right in front of us yet we seem to avoid him and go for some awful dude and just harm everyone involved.
Yup. In short, life’s a complicated jumble of complications.
Now a talk about my love life (not much to it to be quite frank). Can you even consider a crush as love life because if you can’t, then I have no love life, really.
Anyways, I like this boy. I’d show you a picture, but that’s pretty risky since lots of people I know in real life check this blog.
The first thing you notice about him is his laugh. His laugh is like a baby’s; when you hear it, you just feel better and want to laugh along; it’s so unlike a laugh I’ve heard. It’s like one of those laughs girls from chick flicks seem to have that echo and are fake but his is just so real. That’s one of the reasons I like him so freaking much.
His smile is so just… different? Amazing? Charming? It’s just a little bit of everything that manages to still be perfection.
What I like about him most though is how he acts. His actions seem to be like they were planned ahead of time, so steady, so unlike me.
Now that I think about it more, I think I like him because he’s the complete opposite of me. He truly is.
He’s shockingly (like, it’s not a shock, but he’s just soooooo cute x ∞) cute. And smart. I don’t know if he’s book smart since I haven’t really known him for starters all too long, but he has this aura that exudes from him and he sure is someone who knows a lot and you can tell is spiritually strong and powerful. I don’t know, man, but there’s just something about him.
For the sake of privacy and all that lunaticity (is that even a word?) and since lots of people I know in real life read this, I’ll give him a nickname. My best friend Lavender (nickname I came up with now since I don’t feel she’d like to be part of this blog) and I used to come up with so many nicknames for people so we could talk about them behind their back and not be afraid of being caught by instructors or by the person. Don’t worry: we never talked bad about them, don’t kill me.

Fellow dweebs: I’d like to introduce you to Lavender, my best friend for what seems like eons. Lavender – people who follow my blog.

Anyway, we christened my current crush (I sound like I’ve liked a whole lot of boys hen that is totally not the case, I’ve just known Lavender since long ago) as Tuesday. Why a day of the week, I don’t know. All I know is that it stuck because I liked this other dude before him and we called him Saturday (or at least I think, he’s old news now) because his name started with an S.
So welcome Tuesday to the blog. Tuesday is a guy I’ve had a crush on since I met him which was in February I think. Around that time.
If you could meet Tuesday, I bet you’d like him too. That’s how he is.
There are lots of good and bad things that come with crushes. Some good are you seem to feel happier and have some sort of reason to live (I just cringed at the thought, it sounds so cliché) and you just have something that keeps your mind off of some things. It’s a great feeling. But then you also seem to become more self-conscious. Seem to think you have to please the person you like and make them “notice” you when that is not the case. You don’t have to change yourself just because a person won’t accept you. If they don’t accept you, screw them, amirite? There’s seven billion people out of there and they were just one of them.

Another bad thing about crushes is a crush is not something serious. It’s a thing that may last a week and change. It’s like food, you might feel a day is ramen noodle worthy and the next day feel like you want gourmet dinner cooked by a real life chef.
To add on to that, they distract you so freaking much. For example, I had this essay I had to write and it was my final. I spent two hours just reading cliché stuff online about crushes like relatable posts and memes and tips and everything. This always, always seems to happen. It’s as inevitable as oblivion.

Well, I’ll leave you guys to it since I have some stuff to do. Bye and I’ll catch you on the flip side. Peace.
Let’s pray Mama V gets better luck.

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Author: VtheMisfit

A girl nearly in high school who wears the midgets of stilettos biannually and who bingewatches Troye Sivan videos……………….slime man

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